Bipolar

I want to apologize for the absence of posting on here. I had to wait until I went home to see my family so that I could talk with them before I posted anything online.

In early October I was diagnosed with Bipolar II. My life has been a roller coaster ever since. I have debated left and right which way to go with this. Well, I decided that my blog with be the beginnings of my being open and honest about what is going on. I feel that too often in the Christian circle we gloss over the hard parts of life and don't talk about them, or just pretend they don't exist. My being bipolar makes no difference to my faith. If anything, my faith in what God is doing is growing even stronger.

So I would like to invite you to join me on the journey through the ups and downs. The silly times and the hard struggles. To invite you to join me in real life. The foundational verses that I am clinging to during this journey are Psalm 73:26, " My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." When things get tough I know He is holding me up, Psalm 54:4, "Behold, God is my helper; the Lord is the upholder of my life." This means isall good. Once again I'm given this promise in Romans 8:28-39,"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified. What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies. Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? As it is written,“For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." And one way He upholds my life is by equipping me with what I need, Ephesians 6:12-19, "For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints"

These are the verses I will come back to time and again as we go through this journey. I hope you are touched and encouraged as you read through this. No matter what we go through, isall good and we are not alone. Don't be afraid to be the person you were created to be, even if it doesn't follow the norm. :)